Good For Another 3 Months

I had my 3-month check up three days ago and everything is clear. What a relief! I'm good to go until March, when I have another mammo and check-up. The problems I'm having with the Tamoxifen is a known factor, but I can't change medications in the near future. So for now I will try to alleviate them holistically (sp?).

Today we get our Christmas tree. I need to try to get into the Christmas spirit. Remembering where I was a year ago should make me very thankful, but somehow the joy isn't there. It will come in time, I think.

One year and counting

I passed the one year anniversary of my cancer diagnosis a couple of days ago. It's really good to have that behind me. On Thursday I have a 3-month check up with the oncologist, and hope that goes well. I'm looking forward to the holidays, knowing there won't be a black cloud over my head like last year. It will also be more relaxing not to be traveling. Christmas can be a very stressful time in and of itself without adding the stress of either flying or driving on bad roads. Our Thanksgiving trip was enough!

Go Bobcats!

GO CATS!

Snowpalooza!

There seems to be a snow theme running through the blog these past few weeks. We returned from a two week visit to Seattle to find my car almost buried in snow! Close to two feet, I'd say. Not that piddling little 2-3 inches that Seattle got so excited about just before Thanksgiving. Buffalo, NY has nothing on Bozeman.

Seattle Snow

Feeling lucky to get out of Montana before this current blast of arctic weather hit, it seems that some of it followed us to Seattle. Yesterday, one of those rare snowstorms hit Puget Sound, and as usual, life as they know it around here came to a standstill. Traffic gridlock and TV news coverage non-stop. Today, the sun is shining and the snow is a refreshing change from the usual rain and gloom you get in November. I like it!

Ups and Downs

The past month or so has been a real rollercoaster for me emotionally. I have been feeling very depressed, with low energy levels and lots of tears. I was beginning to think I was losing it mentally. To help myself snap out of this, I went for acupuncture last week. After talking to my acupuncturist, she told me it was probably a side-effect of the Tamoxifen that I take. If you remember from earlier posts, Tamoxifen is an estrogen inhibitor which pushes your body into menopause (for those of us who haven't gotten there yet). Well, just knowing that made me feel better. I also started taking Vitamin D, which is known to help with depression. I have felt so much better over the past week. My energy is back. There's been a lot less crying, and I feel much more hope for the future.

The Project

Home improvement has been part of our lives since we bought our first home. I have at times been less than enthusiastic about some of the projects John wanted to tackle, but in the end, we have been very pleased with the results. The most recent project is no exception. It is an extension to our patio plus a fence to give us more privacy. One of the neatest parts of this project was that John was able to recycle the old redwood benches that were there and use the 2x4s as joists for the decking, as well as framing for the fencing. Phase 1 is now complete on the east side. Phase 2 will commence next spring when the snow melts. So far, it's looking great!

A Little Taste of Winter

A winter storm rolled through the valley yesterday, dumping several inches of heavy, wet snow. We went from 65 degrees and warm sunshine the day before to 32 and snow within 24 hours. It's hard to get acclimated when it happens that fast! When the clouds finally cleared away this afternoon, I snapped this photo before the sun went down. The snow on the Bridgers was so bright, it hurt my eyes to look at them. Weather is so amazing.

Hungry Bear

During the fall in Montana, it's a good idea to bring in bird feeders and garbage cans at night so roving bears aren't tempted. Well, we didn't do a very good job of either, and last night had a hungry visitor. He knocked over the garbage can, dragging stuff clear out onto the golf course. Then he knocked over the yard waste can. Finally, he tried to get at my suet feeder, which amazingly held together. It just got a little stretched. What's amazing is that he didn't bother my can of birdseed which sits up on the patio. That would have been his pot 'o gold!

Fall Cleaning

This week I decided to clean out my closet a bit, and donate my wig and several fleece hats to the Cancer Support Community in Bozeman. They offer a program to give wigs and hats to women who have lost their hair due to chemotherapy. One of the women in my support group used this service, and was really glad to have a private place to try on a wig. They even offer styling services after you've chosen a wig. When I lost my hair, I was unaware of this service, so I ended up trying on wigs at a salon. It was uncomfortable, but mostly because I had to look at myself in the mirror. The wig I got was fine, but I only ended up wearing it a handful of times. It just wasn't me. I hope that it will help another woman during a very difficult time.

Cattle Drive

Yesterday I helped move and sort a small herd of cows & calves that belong to my friends Connie & Al. Al is taking most of the calves to the stockyard to sell today. Everything went smoothly and the horses were well-behaved, despite the cold wind and snow squalls. Over the years, it's been fun to help out with Al's herd, and good to see how well-cared for the animals are. I definitely see the benefits in the quality of beef that ends up in our freezer. Nice to know where your food comes from.

Mending In The Mountains

I just returned from a 3-day retreat for women who have or have had cancer. It was held at the 320 Guest Ranch up Gallatin Canyon. 70 women from Montana, Massachussetts, Michigan & North Carolina attended (I may have missed a few states). The weekend was made up of different activities to help us cope with our illness. The focus was on learning how to write about our experiences. It was really the first time I had ever written down my thoughts and feelings, and it was very emotional, especially reading them out loud to the group. Some of the stories were so heart-wrenching. We also had support groups, plus time to relax with yoga, walks, etc. While it was a very difficult time for me, I feel better for having gone. I met so many wonderful, strong women. I hope to go again next year.

Yellowstone

Yellowstone Park is one of those places we never get enough of, no matter how many times we visit. There's always something to see, new places to explore, or a favorite to re-visit.

John and I just returned from our camping trip, and we really didn't want to come home. Every day was warm and sunny, and each evening was filled with a sky-full of constellations. While we sat in front of our nightly campfire, the sounds of yipping coyotes and bugling elk reached our ears.

On one of the hikes we took, John noticed a fresh bear print on the trail. While we were discussing whether it was a small black bear or grizzly that made it, we saw another huge bear print, obviously a grizzly. We thought it must have been a female with a cub. It seemed like a good time to turn around and head back to the trailhead! Even though we didn't see a bear, the thought of one having walked the same path just before us made my heart race a little.

I've posted a few photos I took for your perusal. I wish I had taken one of that bear print ....

Back in the Bozeman Groove

We've been home just over a week, and getting back in the Bozeman groove. After being weighed at the doctor's office a couple of weeks ago, I decided it was time to lose a few pounds. So I'm back at the gym and also going to yoga classes. Yoga is so great for releasing stress and focusing on the moment. It's good, too, for stretching out those stiff muscles, which I seem to have a lot of recently. Christy would say that's because I'm getting old!

Tonight, John and I are attending a fundraiser for the Cancer Support Community, which has done so much for me over the past 7 months. I'm trying to talk myself into wearing the dress that I wore at Courtney's wedding. I don't have that many opportunities to dress up in Bozeman, so why not take advantage? (See photo of John and I from the gala, above)

Tomorrow, we hook up our little camper and head to Yellowstone for a few days. The weather is supposed to be beautiful and this will probably be our last opportunity to go camping before it gets too cold. As it is, night time temps are dipping into the 20s, so I'm taking my down comforter!

Clean Bill of Health

Today was my first 3 month check-up with the oncologists. I had to have a mammogram as well as blood work done prior to my doctor's appointments today. While the mammogram was a bit unnerving, everything was clear and normal! I'm so glad to have that behind me.

What unnerved me was that I was asked to stay for an ultrasound after finishing the mammogram. Now, the last time this happened was 9 months ago, and you know the rest of that story. So there was a lot of scary deja vu as I laid there in the ultrasound room. But it was simply to be thorough and absolutely sure there was nothing hiding behind my surgical scar.

My next check-up is in December with the oncologist, and the next mammo is in 6 months. It's time to stop worrying and move forward!

The Wedding

A couple of weeks ago, John and I attended my niece Courtney's wedding in Eastern WA. It was quite the family affair. My entire family was present, as well as Courtney's mom's side of the family, plus lots of friends. It was a beautiful outdoor wedding, set in front of a stately homestead house overlooking the Methow River. The bride was beautiful and the groom handsome. I think they will be a good match. My nephew Erik provided music with his guitar during the ceremony and the first dance. I was so proud of him!

Several speeches were made during the reception dinner, including one by my dad. The first part was completely in Norwegian, which of course nobody understood (except for maybe my mom), followed by several classic Ole and Lena jokes, as only my dad can tell them (and get away with!). He had the place rolling with laughter.

My brother Chris looked every bit the father of the bride and very handsome in his tux. It was so emotional to see him give away his daughter. One down and two daughters to go!

Photos to follow .....

Reading List

This morning I started thinking about all the books I read during my cancer treatment this past winter and spring. Now, for those who know me well, I'm notoriously slow getting through a book, mainly because I only read about a page before falling asleep. But when you are undergoing chemotherapy, your sleep patterns get completely turned around, especially with the steroids you have to take. So all of a sudden, I became a voracious reader.

I wrote down all the books I have read up to today (those I can remember), and thought I'd share them on the blog. I'm not guaranteeing they were all great, but they help keep your mind occupied.

Midnight in the Garden of Good & Evil - John Berendt
The Secret Life of Bees - Sue Monk Kidd
The Glass Castle - Jeannette Walls
The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo - Stieg Larsson
The Girl Who Played With Fire - Stieg Larsson
Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
Border Songs - Jim Lynch
The Ginger Tree - Oswald Wynd
The Reliable Wife - Robert Goolrick
The Gravedigger's Daughter - Joyce Carol Oates
Skinwalkers - Tony Hillerman
Harry Potter
The Mermaid Chair - Sue Monk Kidd
The Help - Kathryn Stockett
Hotel At The Corner of Bitter & Sweet - Jamie Ford
The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks - Rebecca Skloot
Murder on the Orient Express - Agatha Christie
Double Take, A Memoir - Kevin Michael Connolly

A Quick Update

It's been quite a while since I posted, so I thought I'd give you a quick update. John and I are out in the Seattle area visiting with family. We all gathered to help my parents celebrate their 60th wedding anniversary this week. Now we all head to Eastern Washington to attend my niece's wedding tomorrow.

It's been really nice seeing my brother Dave and his family. I haven't seen them since last year.

Once we return to Bozeman, I will post some photos from the past few weeks. My first 3-month check-up is coming up Sept. 9th and I hope it goes well.

Lou Ann

Riding

Horseback riding has always been one of my favorite activities since I was just a little tyke. I remember going on the pony rides at Woodland Park Zoo in Seattle when I was 5 or 6 years old. It's one of my most vivid childhood memories.

Now, as an adult, I still get the chance to ride, although not as often as I'd like. There's nothing quite like riding a trail in the mountains surrounding Bozeman. Beautiful views, abundant wildflowers, birds singing everywhere, the smell of the horse underneath you. It's a powerful tonic.

Quite often we see wildlife. On a ride a few weeks ago, we came upon a herd of close to 150 elk. It was amazing to sit quietly and listen to the mothers call to their young calves. We also heard bulls bugling down below us. On the same ride, we surprised a black bear on the way back down the trail. Those kind of moments you remember forever. I'm so glad I live where I do.

A Bull of a Moose

I was birding with a friend a few days ago, when we came upon the biggest bull moose I have ever seen. He was eating tender willows alongside the road. It's amazing to see any moose, but a bull in his prime, wow!

Maxx of Wichita

John and I just had a great visit with our good friend Maxx. He came from the heat and humidity of Wichita to the dry heat of Montana. What a relief! We were hiking one day over in the Paradise Valley, and it was at least 95 degrees. Maxx didn't even break a sweat. He's one cool cucumber! We shared a lot of laughs, which were sorely needed. We also watched Maxx's brother and niece as they competed in a team roping event in Livingston (see photo). Hopefully the next time we see him, he'll have his wife Ann with him, and a Montana address.

We miss you both!

Cancer Support

I've mentioned them before, but Bozeman is very fortunate to have the Cancer Support Community. It's an organization that provides all sorts of free services to cancer patients. They have been a huge help to me throughout my treatment. I have utilized the acupuncture sessions, support groups, and their Healthy Excursions program (bicycling). It's so nice to have such understanding and supportive people available to me. I have also signed up for a women's cancer retreat this fall, which I have been told not to miss. I'm looking forward to it.

Camping in Glacier

John and I just got back from 5 days of camping in Glacier National Park. We spent three days on the west side and 2 days on the east side of the park. Glacier is really a special place, and we had forgotten how beautiful it is. It was nice to re-acquaint ourselves.

We took an evening tour on one of the old restored red buses, which was really fun. It took us from Apgar Village up to Logan Pass, with lots of stops to take photos, and the best part was we didn't have to do the driving. We also brought our canoe and paddled along the shore of Lake McDonald. With all the thousands of people visiting the park, we mostly had the lake to ourselves.

Friends Ed and Diane joined us for the last two days of the trip, and we took a couple of hikes and burned some marshmallows together.

Completely By Accident

Yesterday, I was driving our '66 Mustang on an errand, and noticed a car show going on in the Albertson's parking lot. I thought I'd stop and look at some of the cars. As soon as I pulled up to park, a man walked up and asked if I'd like to enter my car in the show. Well, I couldn't pass up the opportunity to show off our car, so I entered! There were only two cars in the 1964-1967 Mustang class, so I ended up getting a 2nd place trophy, but the best was winning the People's Choice Award. All just for showing up. Not bad for my first car show.

Celebrating Independence Day

I celebrated the 4th with friends Teri & Vito, Patti & John, Karen & Tom and Ed & Diane. We enjoyed delicious food and lots of lively conversation, followed by a few fireworks in the rain. A fun evening was had by all! It was too bad John wasn't there. He drove to Cody yesterday to work a pro bull riding event for ESPN.

Yellowstone camping

John and I got the chance to take our camper down to Yellowstone Park last weekend for 3 days. We really lucked out on both the weather, and the lack of mosquitos. We saw one male grizzly (near the campground) twice, as well as lots of elk and bison. We were joined for two nights by friends Ed & Diane. John caught some nice trout on the Firehole River, plus he and Ed got stuck in a bison traffic jam on their way back to the campground. Only in Yellowstone! A hike into Shoshone Lake was a highlight, especially considering that when we got to the lake, there was no one else around. When you leave the roads and tourist stops behind, you really can find solitude.

A Visit From Mary

Last weekend, our good friend and Bellevue neighbor, Mary, came to visit. It was great to see her. We have been next door neighbors in Bellevue for almost 17 years and often talked about our Bozeman connections. It was fun to show Mary our home here.
We spent the day driving around town, where Mary had lived as a college student. She also met her husband-to-be, Mearl, in Bozeman, and they were married at her aunt and uncle's home on the south side of town (see photo). The current owners invited Mary in for a tour, which she really enjoyed. A delicious barbecue dinner by John finished up the day.

Another Nest

Okay, I know you are all getting tired of bird photos, but I just couldn't resist posting this one. I've known there was a Chipping Sparrow nest somewhere in the Mugo Pine in the front of our house, but I couldn't exactly locate it. Well, as I was standing out front, helping load our camper last Friday, I saw the adult fly in to the bush and two little heads popped up for a meal. Aha! I grabbed my camera and a step ladder and shot this photo. A perfect little grass nest with two nestlings. It amazes me that these sparrows are so tolerant of our comings and goings. They just go about raising their family. I'm glad they picked my yard to nest in.

Lou Ann

Owls!

Yesterday, John and I took a morning hike in the Bridger Mountains. About two miles up the trail, John spotted a large bird on the ground ahead of us. It was a young Great Gray Owl! In fact, there were three of them. As we approached slowly, they hopped up into the tree branches above the trail. John got a few photos. It's a special day when you see a Great Gray, let alone three. No sign of the parents, but I'm sure they were nearby.

Finished!

Well, I did it! I'm done with radiation treatment. It's been a long haul since my diagnosis way back in early December, but I made it through, and now hopefully, I can begin to return to a more normal life. I still have to take the estrogen inhibitor Tamoxifen for a few years, and get check-ups every few months, but the really hard part is behind me.

To all of you who have given me support and love through the past 7 months: I couldn't have done it without you! Thank you from the bottom of my heart. It goes without saying that my husband John took such good care of me and got me through all those tough days. He has always been my biggest supporter. Both of us now look forward to some summer camping, and travel in the coming months.

I will continue to work on getting my strength and stamina back to normal, as well as grow some hair! That hair thing is a constant reminder of my cancer, and the sooner it grows back, the better.

As to this blog, I will be posting less often, but will let you all know when something important happens.

Lou Ann

How Time Flies

An MSU college chum, Phil, came through town today, and we met for coffee and a quick visit. That's Phil on the right. I know, we look a lot alike, don't we?

It's been 28 years since we've seen one another! Phil hasn't changed a bit. In two years it will be 30 years since we graduated, which is really hard to believe. How time flies. There was talk about a reunion of our TV class of 1982. I hope it happens. It would be a lot of fun to see all those crazy folks again.

The Countdown Begins

I'm down to my last 5 radiation treatments. I can't believe it's almost over! It's almost time to celebrate! Yahoo! Now if my hair would start growing a little bit faster ....

Change in Radiation

I met with my radiation oncologist yesterday. He was a little bit concerned with how red my skin is getting around my collarbone and under my arm. So today, they started giving me my "booster" electron radiation, which only pinpoints my surgery area. I get 5 of these booster treatments, and they usually come the last week of radiation. But instead, I get them this week which will give my skin a rest. Only 8 more to go and I'm done!



Yesterday and today, I checked all my bluebird boxes. We found a few nestlings, and six of them were old enough to band. The cold, rainy weather has been tough on the bluebirds, but they should rebound with a second brood. The attached photos are courtesy of Janne Hayward, and show a male Mountain Bluebird delivering a tasty caterpiller to a nestling, a 4 day old nestling, and me banding an adult female bluebird with some help from Diane.

Bird Festival

I just returned from Missoula where I attended the state bird festival with friends Diane & Karen. We had a lot of fun, as always. We went on two field trips; one to the Mission Valley (see photos), which is so beautiful. The second was a 6 mile hike up Pattee Canyon. As I was talking to one of the other gals on the hike, she mentioned she lived in Jackson, WY. I told her my brother Dave lives there. Well, it turns out she knows Dave and Patsy, my sister-in-law. What a small world! But I guess Jackson is a small town.

It was also great fun to catch up with all my birding friends from around the state. I'm fortunate to know so many good people. I am completely exhausted, but it's a good tired. My pillow is calling ....

Celebrating Being A Survivor

Last night, I attended a celebration for cancer survivors. It was sponsored by the Cancer Support Community here in Bozeman. It was a great evening with delicious food, drink and music. Two of my biggest supporters, Diane and Teri came with me (John is out of town). I saw a lot of people I knew, including many I've met over the course of my treatment. All my doctors and nurses were there, too. I even saw my 4-H horse leader (from about 40 years ago!). I liked what the emcee said that once you've gotten a diagnosis of cancer, there's nothing else you want to be as much as a cancer survivor. How so very true.

Today was my 21st radiation treatment. Only 13 to go!

Memorial Day Weekend

We made a quick, wonderful trip to Seattle for the holiday weekend. It encompassed all things that are important; family, friends, great seafood, good wine, chocolate ....The only thing missing was the sun, but all the rest made up for that.

My folks picked us up at SeaTac and we enjoyed a delicious Japanese dinner together. Saturday evening we spent with friend Christy and her husband Jerry at their home. Sunday, (almost) my whole family gathered at the beach place to spend the day. My Mom and Dad, brother Chris, wife Joanie, 3 nieces, fiancees/boyfriends, Filipino exchange student, Nor, and my husband John. There was lots of great conversation, boating, pickle ball, salmon grilling, clam steaming, beach fire, fireworks. Nor even went swimming in the frigid waters of Case Inlet. It was really nice to spend time with my family.

Nests are where you find them

We were at Costco the other day looking at all the trees and shrubs for sale. I noticed something hanging out of one of the small Norwegian blue spruces. I lifted the branch, and there was a perfect grass nest with 4 speckled eggs inside. Who knows where this tree came from, but it's amazing that the nest and eggs survived the journey to the Bozeman Costco. I'll bet the little bird who belonged to that nest was not very happy. It would be interesting to know what kind of bird made the nest.

John and I fly to Seattle today for the weekend. I'll get to visit with most of my family, and hopefully eat some seafood. I can't wait!

Happy Memorial Day!

Hiking to Better Health

John has been really good for getting me out walking and hiking almost everyday. One of our favorite hikes is Drinking Horse Trail. It's short, but fairly steep. I find that my stamina isn't very good, so I have to stop a lot. But I persevere, and eventually we reach the top, which has a great view of the Gallatin Valley. Yesterday evening was beautiful, so I asked John to take my picture with the Gallatin Range behind me. I'm hiking my way to better health.

Today was the halfway point in my radiation treatment. Hooray! Only 16 more to go.

Moving Forward

I finished up radiation treatment #14 today. Only 19 to go. I'm starting to have a bit of soreness under my arm, but nothing bad. The nurse gave me some extra special ($$$) cream to use. The fatigue is becoming noticeable, too. It's hard for me to go easy on myself physically. With the nice weather, I want to be outside every moment doing something. I just have to be patient.

I also had lunch with two gals that I met through my acupuncture sessions. We talked about our shared experiences through cancer treatment. All three of us agreed that it will be nice when we get to the point of not waking up every morning and thinking about having cancer. I know that is a ways off for me.

John and I checked some bluebird boxes this afternoon. There were 12 nests with eggs, and one with little nestlings about 4 days old. They are so cute at that age!

Tomorrow, I lead a field trip for my Audubon chapter. The weather forecast isn't so great, but maybe the rain will hold off until after we're done.

VSB - Very Special Bird

After my radiation treatment this morning, I met with birding friend Robin to look for a Rose-breasted Grosbeak that she had seen a few days ago. This is a fairly rare bird for the Gallatin Valley, and I really wanted to see it. We had been walking and looking for about an hour, checking out every singing Black-headed Grosbeak to make sure it wasn't really a Rose-breasted, when....there he was, in all his glory! What a thrill! For those of you that don't know what they look like, I've posted a photo at the top of my blog.

Back in the Saddle

I got myself literally back in the saddle today. Friends Connie, Von and myself went for a horseback ride at one of our favorite places, Hyalite Canyon. The horses were well-behaved, the sun was warm, and a few wildflowers were blooming. Best of all was the quiet and the smell of pine on the breeze. We had the whole place to ourselves, and considering what a popular place Hyalite is, it was really a rare event.

Lou Ann

Good Weekend

I had such a good weekend. First of all, the weather was glorious (finally). Secondly, I was able to spend parts of both Saturday and Sunday doing what I love, birding. Even John was drawn in on Sunday, and helped me conduct a bird census at Missouri Headwaters State Park. Thirdly (is that a word?), the wildflowers are really starting to bloom. On Saturday's Audubon field trip, an entire hillside we were walking up was covered in bunches of pasqueflowers, kittentails, buttercups and yellow bells. It was really awesome. I look forward to this time of year so much, and even more so this year. I'm glad it's finally spring!

Lou Ann

Exhausted!

I had a busy 5 days with Christy. Lots of bird-related activities, of course; a field trip, bluebirding, an Audubon potluck. We also squeezed in two road trips, one to Anaconda to visit with some of Christy's relatives. They were branding calves, which was fun to watch. Even city-girl Christy got in on the action (see photo - she's in the green jacket). The other trip was to Yellowstone Park to look for wildlife. We were not disappointed! Elk, bison with newborn calves, pronghorn, and four grizzly bears (a sow with two older cubs in one location, and a large male in another spot). We finished the day with a burger at Chico Hot Springs. It was a great visit and I'm exhausted!

Radiation treatments are going well. I just had my 7th yesterday. It's becoming a routine, and generally I'm in and out in 15 minutes. I see the radiation oncologist every week and he checks my progress. There haven't been any adverse effects, yet. I'm starting to get some fine baby hair on my head, but my eyebrows are almost gone. I'm hoping to start growing real hair soon.

Lou Ann

Visitor from Bellevue

My good pal Christy is coming for a visit from Bellevue today. I had lots of outdoor activities planned, but since it has snowed everyday for the past week, those plans may change a bit. But no worries, we always have a great time together.

Last night John and I went to hear Arlo Guthrie at the Ellen Theatre. What a great show. It featured Arlo and about 10 members of his family. They sang a lot of Woody Guthrie tunes, plus some of Arlo's well-known songs.

The pansies that I planted a while back are looking a bit sad this morning. They have had a tough week. Snowstorms, high wind and freezing temperatures. But despite their name, they don't give up easily, and I'm counting on them to pull through.

Spring is coming?

Lou Ann

Getting tattooed

I got my radiation tattoos yesterday. It was a somewhat painful procedure. The technician put a dot of india ink on the spot, then pierced my skin with a needle. Luckily, there were only three spots to do. I'm beginning to re-think my idea of getting a real tattoo ....

This morning I went in for my first radiation treatment. They laid me on a hard-surfaced bed (like a CT scan), with my arms stretched over my head. The radiation machine zapped me for about 20 seconds at three different angles. That was it. Not real comfortable, but quick. Now I have to repeat the procedure another 32 times.

Afterwards, I met with my oncologist for a follow-up to the chemotherapy. We talked about how it had affected me, and what to expect next with the drug Tamoxifin, which I'll be taking now for at least 2 years. Tamoxifin is an estrogen inhibitor and has been used in treating breast cancer for about 30 years. The side-effects are minimal, and certainly less than the chemo. So begins Phase 3 of my treatment.

Lou Ann

Lunch out

Yesterday, several of my girlfriends took me out to lunch for a belated 50th birthday celebration. It was a collection of friends old and new, and fun to see them all.

The weather here has been somewhat unsettled the past few days, and not really conducive to being outside, but John and I have gone out walking or hiking nonetheless. On one evening walk, in the snow and wind, we both heard a Great Horned Owl hooting, so we walked toward the sound until I spotted him up in a tree. It's always a treat to watch an owl when it calls. They lean forward, stick their head out, tip their tail up, and then hoot. It seems with all that build up, the sound that comes out would be louder, but it's rather soft in tone. Subtle but compelling at the same time.

Tomorrow, I'm taking a couple of new recruits to check a few bluebird boxes. I hope the birds have survived all the snow and cold.

Springtime in the Rockies....

Lou Ann

Catching Up

I guess it's been a few days since I've posted, so it's time to catch up.

We had a nice trip to Billings, and visit with John's family. Other than being rather lopsided, my chocolate cake was delicious, and a big hit with John's niece, Amy. We brought half of it home and I've been grazing on it. The rest needs to go in the freezer!

Today, I went in for my radiation planning session. The nurse marked me up with a Sharpie and then scanned me with a CT scanner. This will help line up the radiation equipment with the area to be treated. I start treatments next Tuesday.

Yesterday, I took two bird feeders out to the Churchill rest home, and hung one up for one of the residents. This very sweet lady is bedridden, and one of the few things that gives her pleasure is to watch the birds outside her window. She had her field guide and we talked about what birds she might be seeing. I was glad that I could do this small thing and bring some happiness to her life. It is so easy to become focused on your own problems, but then you realize that there are so many others that are much worse off than you. It was a good reality check.

Lou Ann

Hittin' the Bluebird Trail

I don't know if I've mentioned it here, but I monitor over 50 mountain bluebird nest boxes northwest of Bozeman. In bluebird lingo, we call it a "trail". Anyway, nesting season is upon us, so yesterday I went with my mentor, Mary, to do some repair and relocation of boxes on another trail. It was a glorious morning to be out with lots of birdsong in the air.

We found many of the boxes already had the beginnings of a grass nest. One box had a complete nest with one cold bluebird egg in it. This tells you that the female has just started laying eggs and hasn't begun to incubate them yet. I got a surprise when I opened the top of one box and found a female bluebird inside, sitting on a nest. Mary picked her up and saw that she already had a band on her left leg. We wrote down the number to look up where and when we had banded her. Mary placed her gently back on the nest (there were no eggs yet). It's likely that we had interrupted her as she was getting ready to lay her first egg. How rude! Bluebirds don't complain, however, and she likely got right back to business.

Tomorrow, John and I head to Billings to meet up with his sister, husband, and niece Amy to celebrate her birthday. Today, I'm going to make her a chocolate birthday cake to take over. Life is good.

Lou Ann

Desperate for spring color

I was so desperate for some spring flowers around the house, that John took me to the garden store, and I picked out a flat of pansies, which I promptly planted in one of my oak barrels. Whew! that's better. I know that they will probably freeze, since it's only mid-April, but for now they are providing much-needed color.

I'm now 6 days from my last treatment, and hoping to start feeling better soon.

Lou Ann

Chemo #4 - The Last One!

My chemo treatment went just fine yesterday. I met beforehand with my oncologist and we discussed my follow-up appointments, etc. Since I've been having bone pain with the Neulasta shot, he ordered a lesser dosage for today. Yeah!

As I was finishing up with the infusion, several of the staff members gathered around and sang me their special "chemo send-off" song, along with a balloon and signed card. It brought tears to my eyes. They are a special group of people, and the care I've received there has been the best.

I also went for another acupuncture session afterwards. She focused on helping me with the nausea which I will start having later today and tomorrow. The less anti-nausea medication I have to take, the better.

The best part .... that part of my treatment is behind me now.

Lou Ann

Lamb Season

I had a really nice day yesterday. I hiked with the BWAG's in the morning. I could really feel how out of shape I was, but it was good to be out and in the company of my girlfriends. It's so incredible how much love and support I get from all of them. They have made such a difference in how I've gotten through the treatment so far.

After hiking, I went out to visit with my friend Gretchen and see all her new lambs. We had a good talk, and of course the lambs were so cute. Another rite of spring.

Last night, I went to the monthly Audubon meeting, which featured an interesting talk on the life of the Yellowstone bison. It was also great to see all of my friends there.

Well, today I get my 4th and final chemotherapy treatment. It's a day to celebrate. I'll post again later to let you know how I'm doing.

Lou Ann

Spring Weather!

The weather is never boring here in Bozeman. Yesterday it reached a balmy 63 degrees! Then about 4 p.m. a dark cloud appeared on the horizon. My dad commented that it looked like a tornado. Within minutes, it was blowing 40 mph and snowing hard. The temperature had dropped to freezing. Lots of tree limbs were broken and several stop signs blown down, among other things. We had planned to take Mom and Dad to the MSU Spring Rodeo, but decided to stay warm and dry at home. A good decision, I think.

BTW, I've had such a good visit with my folks. We've just been hanging out together everyday. I took them to my acupuncture appointment on Wednesday, and they got to see the nice facility at the Cancer Support Community. Yesterday, we took a nostalgia tour of Big Sky. My parents have an incredible memory for people and events. Today, I put them on the plane to Seattle. I hope the flight isn't too bumpy!

Lou Ann

Another Ski Day!

John and I had so much fun skiing last Wednesday, we decided to go again yesterday. The conditions were a bit different. It was snowing and it was cold, but the skiing was excellent. I quit at lunchtime, and Diane and I sat by the fire at the Huntley Lodge. I really felt good, but I'm glad I quit early.

Today, Mom and Dad arrive from Seattle for a visit. Right now it's snowing hard, so I hope their flight isn't delayed. We have a winter storm watch through tomorrow. It will be good to see them and have a few days' visit.

Lou Ann

Powder Skiing

What more could a girl ask for? Sunny blue skies, fresh powder snow, husband and friends to ski with .... I had such a great day. Judging by the stiffness this morning, I might have possibly overdone it just a teensy bit. But it's a good feeling. I'll really appreciate the massage I'm having this afternoon!

Lou Ann

Winter Returns

The snowflakes were flying almost all day in Bozeman; the wet, slushy kind. John and I decided we can't pass up fresh powder, and are going to Big Sky to ski tomorrow. I also have a college friend visiting from New York, so I'll get to see him as well. It should be a great day!

Lou Ann

Spring is coming

It really felt like winter was taking a back seat to spring yesterday. Friend Diane and I took a stroll around my neighborhood, and it felt warm, although the thermometer said only 48 degrees. Then we spotted a small cluster of crocus near a mailbox. I could hardly believe it! Then I remembered the crocus in Bellevue (WA) probably bloomed almost 2 months ago. Spring comes so much more slowly here. You really have to be patient.

I spent another hour or so sitting in the sun, reading "A Reliable Wife". Interesting book. Anyways, as I was sitting there, I heard the unmistakable sounds of a Sandhill Crane and a Red-winged Blackbird. It made me feel good to hear them calling. Another sure sign of spring. It's coming. I just have to be patient.

Lou Ann

Maintaining

It's been 3 days since my treatment, and I've been feeling kind of nauseated today. But I have medication to help with that. I managed to go to the post office, recycling and video store. So far, no body or muscle aches, which is good. The acupuncturist that I go to each week worked on that side-effect in particular this past Wednesday, so I'm hoping for some relief.

I just talked to my dad, and he's fighting a cold that my mom gave him. I told him they both have to get well before they come to see my in April! It'll be good to have my family here.

Lou Ann

PS I watched the Huskies slip away from a victory against W. Virginia last night. Too bad they didn't shoot the ball better. I guess now I'll root for Kansas State.

Chemo #3

I had my 3rd chemotherapy treatment today, which went fine. l also met with the radiation oncologist to talk about what's coming up next in my treatment schedule. I'll be starting radiation treatments 3 weeks after the last chemo (April 13), so that will be May 3rd. I'll have to go in 5 days a week (Monday through Friday) with weekends off, for a total of 33 treatments. So I hope to be done by the third week in June. The only side-effects of radiation is fatigue, which gets worse as you go, plus some skin irritation. But I can handle that! So I'm now 3/4 of the way done with the chemo. The next one is the last!

Tomorrow is another acupuncture session, followed by a trip to the Cancer Center for the much-dreaded Neulasta injection. I have to take the good with the bad, I guess.

Thanks to you all for the great comments! I really enjoy reading them. Keep 'em coming.

Lou Ann

Road Trip

John and I took my wig for a spin yesterday with a road trip to Butte. The purpose of the trip was to shop for furniture (we didn't find anything we liked). After shopping, we went on an auto tour around historic Walkerville, plus drive-by's of our old Butte lodgings. Things looked the same, only a little more worn. It's been 23 years since we lived in Butte. John also grabbed the opportunity to stop at Nancy's Pasty Shop to pick up a half-dozen to bring home. We split one for dinner, delicious! On our way home we went on the backroads, where I finally saw a pair of bluebirds! Spring is now officially here.

Lou Ann

A New "Do"

Once again I have hair! I went in for a wig fitting yesterday, and I think overall it looks pretty good. I wonder if it will stay on in a stiff wind? At any rate, it looks better than my bald pate.

Lou Ann

Visitors!

We've had John's sister Nikki and husband Paul here visiting yesterday and today, and have enjoyed two delicious dinners together (courtesy of John). Tonight's feast was corned beef and cabbage, and I added some homemade biscuits. We enjoyed every bite. Tomorrow they head back towards Plentywood, MT. If you don't know where Plentywood is, it's in the northeastern-most corner of the state, not quite in North Dakota and not quite in Canada. Tomorrow afternoon, my good friend Christy is flying in from Bellevue. She's staying over the weekend, and I can't wait to see her. This week is going fast!

Today I double-dipped and followed up my weekly acupuncture with a very relaxing massage. I think the acupuncture is helping with my energy level and the headaches, too.

More to follow later.

Lou Ann

Eagles, Eagles Everywhere

I had another one of those special bird sightings yesterday that I want to share with you. I have a friend, Nancy, who knows a couple who own a large piece of property along the East Gallatin River. They had noted large numbers of Bald Eagles coming to roost each evening in the trees just behind their house, and invited us to come see the gathering. So last night, about an hour before sunset we drove out and saw the spectacle. There were around 20 eagles already there when we arrived. Then they just kept coming, one at a time, like planes approaching an airport. They would fly up the river, make a circle and land in one of the cottonwoods. We kept counting, and came up with at least 55 Bald Eagles, with probably more since some were out of our line of vision. As each eagle landed, they announced themselves with much eagle chatter. Most were adult birds, but there were quite a few juveniles, too. It was quite a sight, seeing 10-12 eagles in one tree, all jostling for position. I haven't seen that many eagles since the days when they used to gather in the 100's at Apgar campground in Glacier Park (to eat land-locked salmon). Pretty neat!

Lou Ann

Cabin Fever

I've really had a case of cabin fever this week. It seems like I've been stuck inside the house for days, other than a trip to the Cancer Center for a doctor's appointment. So it was really nice last night to be invited to dinner at friends John and Patti. They put on a delicious feast, and John regaled us with funny stories. It was a great evening. Then this morning I went for a long walk at Headwaters State Park with Mary and Diane. The sun was shining, the wind was calm and the rivers were sparkling. It was a good day to be out.

Lou Ann

Turning the Big 5-0

Well, the other day I was dreading arrived today, my 50th birthday! I normally love to celebrate my birthday, but not this year. There was just too much to be depressed about. My mood was pretty low this morning, but after a walk with John along the East Gallatin River, and a few birthday phone calls, I felt my spirits rise. Things can always be worse, and as my dad often reminds me, "Celebrate every birthday, because it beats the alternative". Truer words have never been spoken. So tonight I enjoyed the spicy chili and creamy cheesecake that John made at my request. I even drank a beer, the first since Super Bowl Sunday. It turned out to be a pretty good day after all.

Lou Ann

Under the Radar

I've been under the radar the past few days, so I thought I'd post an update. The side-effects from the latest chemo have been pretty similar to last time, just maybe a teensie bit worse. Muscle/body aches and extreme tiredness have kept me down since Friday, but yesterday was a little better, and I'm hoping today is even more better. It's really hard to be sick and inside when the weather outside has been so beautiful. I managed a walk around the neighborhood with friend Nancy yesterday, and just sitting on the front porch in the sun really feels good.

I watched the Oscars last night from beginning to end. The first time ever! It was mostly entertaining, and I was glad to see Jeff Bridges win his first Academy Award. He has always been a favorite actor of mine, ever since "Rancho Deluxe".

Today I look forward to a visit from BWAG friend Karen, who has made me some really nice polarfleece hats to wear. I'll be stylin'!

Lou Ann

Needles, Needles

I had my first acupuncture session today. It was a group session, starting with four of us. The acupuncturist went around to each person, going over symptoms and problems. Then she took your pulse and looked at your tongue, which gives the acupuncturist clues about your internal health. I was having some sinus pain and stuffiness, so she inserted needles on either side of my nose and one at the top of my forehead. I also had needles on both feet, legs and hands, which was for more general treatment. I laid on my chaise lounge for about 45 minutes, while she attended other patients. There were people coming and going throughout. I was very impressed by the thoroughness and cleanliness of the procedure. My energy level was better afterwards, and I'm already looking forward to session #2 next week.

Lou Ann

Chemo Treatment #2

Today's infusion went very smoothly. I went in early to have my blood work done and then met with one of the doctors and we went over the symptoms I had after the first treatment. To help with the bone pain from the booster shot I get, I was told to try taking Claritin for three days. Apparently it has some benefit, so why not give it a shot? It certaintly can't hurt.

I also signed up for a 6 week session of acupuncture, which is offered free of charge by the local cancer support community group. I hope it can help me with some of the side-effects of the drugs, and also the anxiety. My first session is tomorrow. I'll let you know how that goes.

So for now, I'm drinking lots of fluids and taking it easy. I hope to be back out on the ski track, or hiking trails by next week.

Lou Ann

PS I almost forgot! Today's therapy dog was a Keeshound by the name of Maggie. Our family had a keeshound when I was growing up in Bozeman, and they are the sweetest dogs.

PPS Having watched the Olympics over the past 16 days, I've been thinking about a trip my dad and I took to Norway in March of 2006. We went to attend the World Cup Nordic Championship, which was held in Oslo. It was the trip of a lifetime. The photo at the bottom of my blog shows my dad, myself, and our hosts, Gunnar and Lisbeth Sunde. Gunnar is my godfather and Lisbeth is my namesake. They are wonderful people.

Hard to Believe

I have had such a great past week. It's really hard to believe that I'm undergoing chemotherapy! Starting Monday skiing with John, then hiking with Teri & Diane on Wednesday, and snowshoeing with Mary on Thursday. Yesterday I went on a local Audubon field trip to look for raptors (which we saw lots of), and spending time with my birding buddies.

Today, I'm getting together with four of my best BWAG friends (Bozeman Women's Activity Group) for an afternoon tea. I have heard rumors there will be a lemon meringue pie!

I'm enjoying every minute of all of it, because Tuesday, it's back to reality and treatment #2. I hope it goes as well as the first.

Lou Ann

A New Haircut

Well, the day I had been dreading arrived today. My hair was falling out noticeably this morning, so I called my hair stylist, Megon, and she got me in this afternoon. My friend Diane was so nice to come pick me up and also to take photos of the process. I decided I wanted to document what I had to go through. It didn't take long, and soon all my hair was laying on the floor underneath my chair. It feels weird, but I am relieved to have it over.

A couple of days ago, I found a website that sells hats and scarves specifically for cancer patients, so I ordered several different ones. They should arrive tomorrow.

So, for those of you who want to see what I look like without hair, I've attached a few photos.

Lou Ann

Big Sky

Wow, what a day! John and I went downhill skiing today with friends Ed & Diane at Big Sky. As we arrived, the sun did too. The snow was great and we made several runs all over the mountain, including Hangman's (Mom's favorite) and Tippy's Tumble. After lunch, I decided I'd had enough, so the guys went back out for more. Diane and I headed for the cozy fireplace at the Huntley Lodge and enjoyed conversation over tea/coffee.

A delicious meal (thanks, Ed) and Olympics viewing finished a truly nice day. I hope to have more of those in the future.

Lou Ann

Good Friends

I am so lucky to have all the good friends that I do. They have really kept me going through this with their love and support.

Yesterday I was feeling so tired, and unmotivated to go outside. But friends Diane and Mary (a friend since Jr. High) came over and we went for a walk across Bozeman on the Gallagator Trail. I think about 4 miles in all. It was snowing, but fairly warm. We talked and laughed the whole way, of course. The fresh air was invigorating, and I felt the tiredness flow out of my body. We also spotted a few interesting birds along the way, including Bohemian Waxwings. Diane and I are going to make a bird-watcher out of Mary yet!

Lou Ann

Feeling Normal - Mostly

Yesterday was the best I've felt in many days, almost normal! Most of the unpleasant side-effects have eased up, and I'm able to eat my regular foods again, although I'm eating more ice cream than usual. But why stop now?

My friend Teri came over and we went for a ski around the golf course yesterday morning. It felt great and we skied for about an hour and a half, with a couple of stops. That is such great exercise for me, as well as a giving my mental attitude a big boost. Of course I had to take a good hours' nap afterward.

BTW... I had my blood levels tested on Tuesday, and everything is normal. My white blood count is still at a healthy level. I wonder when it will start to drop?

Lou Ann

A Disclaimer

Several people have commented on the photos I've put on my blog. I'd like to say they are mine, but I can't. Most of them I downloaded from the Yellowstone Nat'l Park website. The photo of the owl I can't remember where it came from, but it's a good one, isn't it? The one of the black bear is mine. That's from my trip to Glacier Park this fall with friend, Christy. From now on, I'll identify my photos with my name at the bottom, when I use them.

Anyway, thanks for reading, and commenting!

Lou Ann

Side-Effects

My bird euphoria over the weekend was somewhat tempered with a bout of bone pain Sunday night. Nothing seemed to help in the way of pain medication, and I couldn't get comfortable. Fortunately, it had subsided by morning. This was not a side-effect I was expecting, though I had been warned about. It is interesting that where you produce most of your bone marrow is in your sternum and hips. And that's where I was hurting.

I'm also having trouble with the inside of my mouth. It feels like I ate a bowl of hot, melted cheese and burned it badly. So any foods that are coarse or acidic are definitely out for now. Bring on the ice cream! The only thing I can do is rinse with a solution of baking soda and salt in warm water.

Today I go for a blood draw to check my blood count levels. I'll have to be extra careful to limit my exposure to other people during this time because of risk of infection.

I took a walk this morning around the neighborhood, which felt good. The sun is shining and the birds are singing. Tomorrow my friend Teri is coming over for a ski around the golf course. I can't wait!

Lou Ann

Big Medicine

I was feeling pretty good yesterday, so John and I took a walk around the East Gallatin Recreation Area. It was mild and nobody else was around, just the way I like it. As I always do, I took my binoculars to look for any feathered friends who might be there.

As we walked into a grove of aspens, I noticed lots of magpies "mobbing", which generally means there is a predator nearby. After some looking, I found a Northern Goshawk ( a large hawk) up in a cottonwood. It was very obliging and sat perched for the entire time we were there. I had a sneaking suspicion that the bird had eaten recently, and was sitting there digesting. I can count the number of times I've seen a goshawk on one hand, so this was an exciting bird to see.

As we walked a bit further down the trail, I spotted a Great Horned Owl not 15 feet away from us, eyes closed! As John was looking at the owl, I saw another owl just across the trail, also very close and at eye level. Seeing owls has always been a very powerful and special thing for me. To see two, so close, was amazing. John and I both decided it was "big medicine". THIS is the kind of medicine I need.

Lou Ann

Lazy Day

Yesterday was a lazy day. After I got up and had breakfast, I took a nap on the couch! Then I went to the Cancer Center to get my white blood cell booster shot. After I got home, I took another nap until dinner time. Talk about a full day!

John made beef stew, which I ate some of. My appetite isn't what it usually is, and I had a little nausea but not bad. I slept better last night.

BTW, I did manage to have some fun over the weekend. I went downhill skiing twice, cross-country once and enjoyed having a few friends over for Super Bowl.

Lou Ann

Treatment No. 1

I had my first round of chemotherapy today. After meeting with the nurse and the physicians assistant, I went to the infusion room and got the IV started. First they gave me a 20 min. infusion of an anti-nausea drug. Then followed the real stuff. Each of those took about an hour. They started me out with a slower drip for the first 10 min. to make sure I didn't have an allergic reaction. Everything went well and I didn't have any problems.

They had a very nice volunteer who brought me food, drinks and a warm blanket while I sat in the lounger. I also had a visit from a therapy dog and her owner. Lucy is a Welsh Corgi, and just as sweet as they come. She jumped up on the chair next to me and I scratched her ears and chin. The rest of the time I talked with John or read, and listened to my iPod. The sound of the infusion pump was slightly irritating, so it was good to drown that out with some music.

The next 24-48 hours is when I'll start to feel the side-effects of the chemo. I have lots of prescriptions to help with nausea, but I'm hoping I don't need much. We'll see ...

More later.

Lou Ann

Chemical Lou

Yesterday and today, John and I attended cancer education sessions at Bozeman Deaconess. Yesterday's session was an overall look at cancer and it's treatment, plus we were introduced to the cancer team (i.e. radiation, chemotherapy, wellness & support). We were really impressed by all the information that was included, plus hearing about the Wellness Community, a local cancer support and education group. They offer all sorts of free classes, activities and counseling. I'm considering one of the accupunture sessions.

Today was my drug education meeting with the nurse practitioner. She went over all the medications I will be taking during my chemotherapy treatments. I won't get too technical here, because I'm sure your eyes will start to glaze over (as mine did). The skinny is this: starting a day before my chemo, I will take a cortisone drug to reduce the severity of fluid retention (swelling) caused by one of the chemo medications. I'll continue to take this med. for 4-5 days. Then on chemo day, they pre-medicate me with anti-nausea medication, followed by the two chemo drugs (Taxotere & Cytoxan). Each of those take over an hour on an IV drip.

The day after chemo, I come back to the Cancer Center for a injection of Neulasta. This will help keep my white blood cell count from bottoming out for a long period of time.

And then there are the 3 or 4 different anti-nausea drugs they send me home with. I may not need any of them, but just in case .......

So John has nicknamed me, "Chemical Lou". I think it's an appropriate nickname, don't you?

More to come on Tuesday. Now it's time to cram in some fun (skiing, Super Bowl party, etc.)

Lou Ann

An Omission

I realize that since starting this blog, I omitted a very important item .....my outlook for being cured. I'm happy to say that if I go through the full complement of treatment, my statistical percentage of being totally cured is around 95%. Right now, I'm cancer-free, and the chemo and radiation will help ensure that I don't have a recurrence. It's always good to keep this in mind when I'm feeling sorry for myself. There's a bright light at the end of the tunnel.

Lou Ann

The Next Step

John and I met with the oncologist today. After getting him up to date on my surgery and post-op pathology reports, we discussed the next step in my treatment, chemotherapy. I'll be getting what they call "TC", Taxotere and Cytoxan. It will be administered intraveneously, once every three weeks. I will be getting four doses total. There are side-effects, of course, which I already knew about. I can expect to lose my hair about three weeks after the first regimen. Fatigue is the other big one, which gets worse with each dose, since the chemo is cumulative in it's effect. The best way to help with fatigue is to exercise. They will give me anti-nausea medication along with my chemo, plus some pills to take home if I have further symptoms. The oncologist said most people don't have much problem with that. In fact, he said that most patients actually gain weight during chemotherapy, because they are less active due to the fatigue. Imagine that! I guess I better cut back on all the food I've been consuming in preparation.

My blood counts will be lowered, too, so I will have my blood checked every week during treatment. I also need to be very careful about infections, because my immune system will be weakened.

So, to help me absorb all this new information, I will be attending two chemotherapy education classes this week. Tomorrow is a group session, then on Thursday I get my "drug education" with one of the physicians assistants at the cancer center. I'm well on my way to that medical degree. That goes for John, too.

My first infusion is scheduled for next Tuesday, Feb. 9th at 10 a.m. It will take about 3 hours, and they have satellite TV to watch or radio to listen to, or I can bring a DVD movie to watch. There's lots of options to keep me occupied.

I'll write more after the classes.

Back Home in Bozeman

Hi Everyone,

John and I got home early last night, and it feels good to be here.

I got fitted for a compression sleeve today for my right arm. This will help keep constant pressure on my arm when I'm exercising. I ordered a "Dream Sleeve" in cranberry, with a matching gauntlet. I'll be really stylin' at the gym.

Tomorrow is my appointment with the oncologist in Bozeman. I'll post again afterwards and let you know how it went.

Thanks for all the great comments. I love to hear from all of you!

Lou Ann

Oncology Rehab

Today I went to talk to a lymphedema therapist. What is lymphedema, you ask? Well, when lymph nodes are removed, it interrupts the normal flow of fluid through your body. Fluid can build up in that area and cause swelling, in my case, my right arm. The swelling can be permanent if not dealt with early enough. Since I'm a fairly active person, I'm more at risk of getting lymphedema. It also can cause a breakdown in your immune system, and you have to be really careful about cuts and burns not getting infected. So my Bellevue oncologist referred me to the therapist to learn all about lymphedema and how to counteract it.

After explaining how the lymph system works, and what causes lymphedema, the therapist checked my range of motion in the right arm. She made several measurements on both arms. This helps you recognize if there's swelling in the affected arm.

Then she showed me about ten different massages to do daily to help the fluid drain into the healthy parts of my lymph system. I also have the option of wearing a compression sleeve on my arm when I know I'm going to be active (i.e. skiing, hiking, weight training, etc.). I learned too that when you fly, the cabin pressure in the plane is not the same as being on the ground, so I will probably need to wear the sleeve for traveling. And it's so stylish, too.

With all this new knowledge, I feel like I'm on my way to a medical degree of some kind.

Health Blog - Getting started

I had a good friend ask me if I was going to blog my experience with breast cancer. I thought, "why would anyone be interested in that?!" But I guess in this age of technology, maybe some friends and family would find it helpful to keep in touch with me as I work my way through treatment. I've also noticed that as information is passed from person to person, misinformation happens.

So here is what happened up to this point:

After finding a small growth during a routine physical, my doctor told me I should probably have it checked out with a diagnostic mammogram. I went the following week. The radiologist also did an ultrasound, and had this comment, "This doesn't look good. We should probably set you up for an MRI, followed by a biopsy." So I had that to think about over the Thanksgiving weekend.

After the MRI and the biopsy, I was told it would be 3 days before they would have the results. On the evening of the second day, Dec. 3rd, my doctor called. "I just got the results of your biopsy" he said. "You have infiltrating ductal carcinoma." I didn't hear much else of what he said, other than it was in the early stages and that I should meet with surgeon to discuss my options.

After meeting with a surgeon in Bozeman, I decided it would be a good idea to travel to the Seattle area and meet with a surgical specialist. After the meeting and much discussion with my husband, I decided to have a lumpectomy and scheduled it for Jan. 4th.

The surgery went well and was performed in an outpatient facility, so I didn't have to spend any time in the hospital. The surgeon told me she took out 7 lymph nodes, which is a bit unusual, since they normally take 2-3, but apparently I have a very healthy lymph system. Just as I was feeling good that the surgery was behind me, the surgeon called with results of the lymph node pathology report. They had found cancer in one of the seven lymph nodes. This was a blow to my mental state, because it meant chemotherapy would be part of the treatment.

It also meant I had to have a CT scan and bone scan to make sure the cancer hadn't spread into other parts of my body. Those fortunately came out clean, plus further tests on the lymph nodes all came out negative.

I met with the oncologist to discuss the results of all the tests. She laid out a recommended course of treatment, starting with 3-4 mos. of chemotherapy (infusions every three weeks), followed by 7 weeks of radiation and 5 years of hormonal therapy. I would lose my hair after the first infusion. This information took several days (and a lot of emotional distress) for my mind to process. I also had to decide if I wanted to have my treatment in Bellevue, or back home in Bozeman. Despite having family in the Seattle area, and my best friend, I thought I would be happier overall in Bozeman.

So that leads us to today. I will be driving back to Bozeman at the end of the month, and will meet with the oncologist there. It will be a tough road ahead, but I think I'm finally up to it.

Lou Ann